Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Day 1 in China

Can I just say how glad I am that I set it up before I left to be able to email myself to a blogger address and have it update my blog and facebook too - because you cannot get on facebook here apparently. Or blogger for that matter. But I can get on hotmail thankfully and I see that folks are commented on my facebook and blog so now I know it's working to update it this way. So glad. YAY! If you're reading this from facebook - I believe it gets delayed in posting to facebook from blogger. If you want to see it on my blog - visit http://autumn-seasonsofautumn.blogspot.com/

It is 6:42PM Nashville time on Tuesday and it is now 7:42 AM on Wednesday here so I just woke up. We took a short rest yesterday morning when we got in and we wanted to get adjusted to the time so we thought we should do a little sightseeing to keep busy and awake. We sure did. Lily, our guide, is super awesome and accommodated our request - she took us to lunch at this most awesome yummy old Beijing noodle restaurant. And she ordered for us a bunch of stuff to try. It was all so yummy. Hoping the pictures I'm trying to post with this will show up. Of course, I took a picture of the food:) My favorite was like a sweet and sour pork. The funny part was - she ordered for us and the left to run home and get her pass to this park we were going to afterwards. Not the best idea to have your translator leave during your first meal in China. Needless to say - our driver who didn't speak English - did show us how to dress the noodles with this soy based sauce stuff. But we were all super thirsty and we looked around - and not many people at the restaurant had beverages. I was using gestures of holding an imaginary cup and drinking to our driver with hopes that he would order us a drink. I even thought, well, maybe they know the word Coke and could get us some Coke. What we ended up with was little cups of hot water. Not tea, water. It was pretty funny. Our guide got back towards the end of the meal and we told her about our attempt to get a drink and that we'd really just love a coke. She tells the driver "coca-cola" and he laughs and totally understands that word. Apparently, our shortened Coke version of it doesn't translate so next time, we'll know to say Coca-Cola! Nevertheless, we didn't drink the hot water and we were super happy when we got our coke:) The moral of the story is - without Lily we get hot water to drink instead of coke! We much prefer having Lily:) And she's super sweet too.

After lunch, we got dropped off at the south entrance of a park called Temple of Heaven. I took some pictures - beautiful architecture but behind it all - a very sad story of this being a place where many gods were worshipped. The people would come there to pray for harvest, rain, wind, etc. There were certain places that would echo because of the design and apparently they believed their gods could hear you when you stood there. I just kept thinking, I'm so glad my God is accessible anytime, anywhere thanks to Jesus! Needless to say, the park was not my favorite place but it had some really awesome like 300+ year old trees that had really neat designs. And a young guy stopped us and told Lily to have us come see his art - so we followed him to a little building and inside was some beautiful art by him and a bunch of other people. Smart guy to stop the Americans - of course, we each bought something. I bought a painting on this scroll thingy that was called "Autumn". There were a series of 4 of this water scene with a tree and two birds and the Autumn one was appropriately yellows and oranges. And since it was name so perfectly - I just had to get it. It was only 150 yen - which I think is like $15 dollars or so in US. Not bad for a neat piece of local art. And it rolled up into a box so I can take it on the airplane pretty easily. 
After we left the park - this is where our adventure really begins in Beijing - our driver was delayed so Lily suggested we take a bus to the subway and the subway to the free market where you can negotiate and bargain prices to buy stuff. I didn't take pictures but one of the other girls did - which I will post later - of all us crammed into the bus. Turns out, the bus we got on was the only one that went to the subway and pretty much everyone in town was on it. If you aren't closterphobic, you still felt like you were. It seemed crowded when we got on but to my surprise - we stopped and picked up more people at at least 4 more stops. It was insane. And these people were getting on so you had better make room or they'd be climbing over you. Case and point - an older lady literally did climb over Frank and Bella to get to a seat by the window. It was crazy. Thankfully, we were not here on a 100 degree day cause it already smelled bad enough in there. So we finally get off the bus and we are all laughing hysterically at how crazy that was. We then get on the subway - almost as crowded but we only had to ride for 2 stops. We got off and wala - we are at the market. 
Note to self: next time I come, wait a few days to shop here when I'm not totally exhausted from a day of travel. The market is madness. It's 6 or more floors of vendors lined in row after row of stuff. One floor has luggage, purses, wallets, bags, etc. Another floor is electronics. There is jewelry, clothing, shoes, nick-knacks, and so much more. I saw some laptop bags and since I had been shopping for one before I left - I knew the price back home for these. And I pretty much knew what kind I wanted as far as size and stuff. I found one that was a Samsonite and started bargaining with the lady. I honestly didn't bring much money on this trip for spending money so I had limited funds. I had in my mind that I didn't need it unless I could get it for 130 yen or less which in US is pretty darn cheap for a nice laptop bag on wheels. I told her that 130 was all I wanted to spend. She had started at 400+ yen and finally after chasing me down the hall when I walked off and said no, I only had 130 - she went down to 190 but I just wasn't going there. She kept saying I could borrow from my friends - yeah right! Dave Ramsey would so not approve. Ha ha  There were other vendors so I kept walking. She was crazy - she literally chased me down the whole row saying "wait lady, wait lady." I finally turned the corner and kept going. I really don't like this kind of shopping. You feel so rushed and pressured and they start doing the price war with you before you really even decide if you want something and it stresses me out. I like to take my time and evaluate whether I need something and how much I have to spend, etc. We were about to go to another floor and I asked if the team I was with (we split into 2 groups) minded if I tried one more vendor cause I really did want a laptop bag. I used my backpack on wheels to get here but the laptop doesn't fit in there very well and I had to take it out and hold it separately on the plane cause the backpack won't fit under my seat. I had not been able to find a bag like these for less than $75 to $100 back home which I just didn't want to spend. But if I could find one for between $15-$20 here in US - that would be a bargain. Next vendor I went to - I asked her about the same bag I had been eyeing at the other vendors booth. She said over 400 yen. I said "I only have 130". She thought for a moment and showed me a smaller Samsonite one that she would give me for 200. I said, "oh ok - thanks anyway - I only have 130" and started to walk away. She said "I'll go 150 lowest". I said "I don't think I have 150 but let me check". I had 145 so I showed her and said "145 is all I have" and wala - I now own a Samsonite rolling laptop bag. I actually kind of like that it's smaller. I'm pretty excited about getting it that cheap. Once I got that - I was pretty much done on shopping and these people chasing you around trying to get you to buy something. The 3 people I was with were not mad shoppers but the other group apparently was - they came back to meet up with us with lots of bags and about 10 minutes late which was not a huge deal but I think they could have shopped longer. Whereas, I was done about 30 minutes into it. Not to mention ready to crash. It was 5:30 PM here which is 4:30 am at home so it's no wonder we were tired. We were so happy when our driver picked us up and we didn't have to take any more public transit. Lily took us to a place to eat near our hotel and it was yummy too. She said their specialty is Peking Duck but you have to order that in advance. Sounds like we may go back on our last day and do that. For this meal, she ordered a huge bucket of rice and a bunch of meats to try - chicken, beef, pork(my fav), and tofu (which was not a hit). There was also this meat thing with a breading around it that I guess was made out of eggplant. The outside was decent but the meat inside grossed me out so I didn't finish mine. But they had these little tortillas and you put the pork in it and rolled it up and ate it and that was super yummy. Both meals - my favorite has been the pork - it's been a sweet sauce both times. I hope we order 2 orders of that next time. We topped off our meal with Coca-Cola (it had a pretty Chinese label) - attaching a picture of Bella holding it. 
After dinner, we walked about 5 blocks to our hotel and immediately headed up to go to bed. We were all totally beat and feeling like we had been here for a week when it had only been one day. A few of the girls wanted to use my laptop so I told them they should come straight to my room - otherwise I had a feeling I'd be out like a light in about 2 minutes. They sent some emails and stayed about 15 minutes. I washed my face and brushed my teeth and when they left put on my pjs and I laid down and my roommate Marsha got on the laptop. I didn't hear anything else - I was out in probably no joke, like 30 seconds. I think I was already dreaming when I heard Marsha ask me how to turn the computer off. I'm sure she had only been on for a few minutes yet my sleep was already so deep, I felt like it had been an hour. I hopped up and turned it off and laid back down and never woke up again until about 2 am to go to the bathroom. Around 4 am, I started waking up a lot and thinking I had been sleeping a long time and wondering why it wasn't light out yet. But we did go to bed at 8pm so that would explain it. I did manage to get back to sleep. Marsha's alarm went off at 7 and I was definitely ready to get up. The sun is out and the horns outside have started honking. It is time to begin Day 2 in China. We are eating breakfast at 9 am and then packing back up and heading to the airport to fly to Chifeng. Tomorrow, we will have our first day at the orphanage there - and we will be face to face with our reason for coming. I can't wait to meet the kids. The team brought tons of arts and crafts to do with them. And I brought face paint! 
Since it's night back home - y'all have a good rest. While you sleep, I will be taking in China! Stay tuned for more. And thanks for all your prayers. 



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Monday, April 5, 2010

I'm in China!

I made it! Here's some pictures of the team in the airport shuttle and a few looking out my hotel room. It has been about 26 hours since leaving Nashville and we just checked in to our hotel in Beijing. It's actually Tuesday morning here. Our flight got in at 5am Tues morning. It's like time travel. Flying all night was the best idea for a 12 hour flight because we slept pretty much 9 of those hours. Not that it was comfortable sleeping but it was sleep and it made the flight go by so much faster. The last 3 hours when I was awake went by slow but they showed GI Joe which is a pretty cool movie so that helped. I was wedged in the middle seat between two guys that I'm pretty sure didn't speak English. They never spoke to me so I'm assuming they didn't. Which was fine with me cause I was so tired, I fell asleep before the plane even took off - I woke up and we were in the air and I was thinking "when did we take off?" I've never fallen asleep for a takeoff before. But it was pretty much 4 am Nashville time when we got on the plane so that would explain the tiredness. Thankfully the seats were much wider than the ones on my earlier flights so I had a little room to move. By the time we were about an hour away - I was started to get a little closterphobic (I'm not sure that's how you spell that). I was happy when we finally got off the plane. The rest of the team sat together farther back. I was sort of separate because my flights got book later than all of theirs. But we were all asleep anyway so it was ok. Since it was so early in the morning, the airport was practically empty which meant we breezed through. We were met at baggage area by our guide Lily and we loaded up into a van and headed to the hotel. I was very glad it was early cause looking out the window from my hotel room now, traffic looks insane (see photo). But we got here just before the craziness. I think it's about 40 degrees out so not as cold as I was expecting. I'm happy about that. We are going to rest up a bit, shower and then meet in the hotel lobby at 11:15am and go sightseeing at a place called Temple of Heaven. We'll have lunch near there and then shop in some sort of market later. And of course, get to bed early tonight to attempt to get adjusted to China time. We're pretty much on the opposite time schedule here so while y'all are sleeping there, we'll be awake here and vice versa. I remember when I went to the Philippines - it was easier to adjust to the time here than it was when we came back home. I think it'll be the same way here. It's light out so my body is already telling me I should be awake. And I did sleep for 9 hours off and on on the plane. 
Anyway, I'll keep this brief. Just wanted to let y'all know I made it safely. And our luggage all made it through all the transfers too. The Lord's favor is all over us - thanks for praying!
We travel to Chifeng tomorrow and for the next 5 days after that, we will be loving on kids in the orphanage there. I will upload pictures and updates as much as possible:)


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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Celebration

I woke up excited. I rarely ever wake up before my alarm yet today I did. I'm so excited to go to China and I'm also really excited and thankful that I don't leave until later in the afternoon so I can attend Easter service at my church. I am thankful for my church. The body of Christ at Belmont has truly demonstrated Jesus to me. I've been there 7 years and it really is home. When I lost my job, the young adults and the pastors there jumped right in to offer support. They've prayed with me, encouraged me and kept me accountable. I had little tastes of it growing up but I never knew authentic church until I came here. And it was in the people at Belmont that I finally knew Jesus - really knew Him. It radically changed my life. And 7 years later, who would've guessed that I would be working for a missions agency and going aroudn the world to minister to orphans? God is so good - and He does have great plans for each one of us if we are obedient to step out in faith and go where He leads. I'm so glad I did. And I pray I will continue to hear His voice and follow where He leads. I'm soooo thankful for the love of Christ that has penetrated my heart and healed so many hurt and broken places. I finally know the freedom in Christ!! Thank you Jesus. Thank you that you came to earth, you lived and you died for me so that I might have life and have it abundantly. Thank you that I didn't find you - you were always there waiting for me to come to you - you found me and I'm so grateful. So today... I am excited to go celebrate Belmont style (which means - jumping, hands waiving, free to really celebrate) service. I love that freedom. And we should be celebrating - today represents the day Jesus rose from the dead! This is the day! He is risen indeed!!!! "The enemy has been defeated and death couldn't hold Him down. I'm gonna lift my voice in victory, I'm gonna shout my praises loud!!!!" And then I'm gonna get on a plane and go to the ends of the earth and let that love that Christ demonstrated to me be demonstrated to "the least of these". Jesus loves the little children and so do I!!! Happy Easter everyone! May you fully know... I mean really, really know that you know that you know - the love of a savior who came and died so that you might live! 

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Preparing My Heart

I leave for China tomorrow - Easter Sunday. Today, I've been packing and praying and thinking about the kids I met in Costa Rica, looking at their pictures and missing them. I've been thinking about how much I wanted to bring a sibling group of 5 home with me but knowing it's not my time yet. I don't even know if they can be adopted - they have a mom - she just keeps getting them taken away from her for neglect. Last time, she left them home alone. And now, she's pregnant again. I pray for her and for those kids. And I pray for their sake, she will get it together and be the mom they deserve. Part of me still wants to be their mom. I cannot get their faces out of my mind. They are in my dreams at night. And they are most definitely in my heart. I know the Lord has put the desire to be a mom and specifically to adopt in my heart - but I have not felt Him yet say "this is the time". So I wait and I trust that I am doing what I can do in the meantime by going and loving on kids and being Jesus to them. I long for the day when I can do more by bringing a child home and being their mommy.
I just watched a video on youtube that my co-worker posted about a family that just adopted 4 kids from Ethiopia. I sat here watching with tears just pouring out. I don't remember ever just bursting out crying as often as I have lately - since I went to Costa Rica. On Compassion trips, when you meet your sponsored child - you know you'll still write to them and you know they are being taken care of, provided for, given a hope and a future - through Compassion and the local church. You leave feeling uplifted and purposeful. You go thinking it's to encourage your sponsored kid and in turn - you end up being the one encouraged. And I came home from that trip with 2 more sponsored kids and later sponsored 3 more and became a volunteer. It wasn't hard to leave. I met my kids family and they were poor financially but rich in love. And I knew he was in good hands and a loving home. I wasn't sad to leave. It was different on this trip to Costa Rica. I fell in love with kids that I don't know if I will get to see or talk to again. I don't know where they'll end up or what will happen to them. Knowing their stories and seeing their smiles yet also seeing the pain behind those smiles - it's heart wrenching. It's a different kind of purpose on a trip like this - it's going in to the dark and bringing light. It's loving kids that may not know what that feels like and may not even know how to receive it. It's knowingly walking into a situation that you know is going to be emotional and painful and heartbreaking - but it's so not about me - cause if it were - I wouldn't go and keep having my heart broken like that. But I'm compelled to go by a father who loves me and loves these kids - even more than I do. And I want them to know that love. It breaks my heart to go - because it should. And I fully expect it to happen in China too. And that's why my heart is heavy tonight. I know that I will fall in love with these children. I know that I will laugh and play and have fun with them. I know I will make new friends with the team that's going and I know I will be glad that I went. But I also know that it will be hard to leave and I will leave part of my heart behind. So I sit here tonight and prepare, pray and ask God to give me and the rest of the team the strength we need. And He will cause He's the one who has called us to go. He has gone before us and prepared the way. And through Christ, I can do all things!


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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

China, here I come

I think I have figured out how to email myself at blogger which will update my blog and also update to facebook at the same time. So this is sort of my little test to see if it works. If this works, it'll be fabulous. 
I leave for China on Sunday so... stay tuned for updates. I cannot wait to meet the kids, experience a new culture and get to know the team that is going. I'm so blessed to have a job where I get to go around the world and love on kids. I'm not a mother but... I get to be a mom to kids around the world. What an honor and privilege. 



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Monday, March 29, 2010

Here I am Lord - send me!


I returned from my first Visiting Orphans trip Wednesday, March 10 very late in the evening. Myself and 9 others spent 8 days in Costa Rica. It was the first time VO had gone to Costa Rica and thanks to the help of an in-country guide named Brian Benson at Infinite Forest, a fabulous bus driver named Bellisario who navigated on the crazy bumpy roads and kept us safe and an amazing team of people from Nashville – it went incredibly smooth. Brian was amazing – so energetic and had every detail covered. Since it was my first time leading a team – he made my job so easy. What a huge blessing. Plus the kids really loved him and it was great to have an additional guy on our orphanage visits since there were so many boys at the orphanages. I know this trip impacted Brian as it was his first time planning a trip that involved orphanages. And I definitely know it impacted all of us. Each person on our team was a Godsend. It was so neat to see how the Lord so perfectly orchestrated this group. Everyone added something wonderful and unique. Each team member was a joy to be around and an honor to serve alongside. To see them interact with the kids was so wonderful – what loving hearts they each have. It was an amazing time. And the kids… wow – I fell in love with them. Each one of them is a gift – a precious beautiful creation – I saw God in each one of them. And I will never be the same. I left a piece of my heart in Costa Rica with them.


I feel personally impacted by this trip in a huge way. So much so that I literally bawled my eyes out last night. I came back Wed night and went to work the next morning and of course, was playing catch up for 2 days on all the emails I’d missed. Last night was the first free time I had. I ended up hanging out with my amazing friends from church and we ended up worshiping together for almost 2 hours. It was so much what I needed and the Lord so ministered to my heart as I cried out to him in worship. I just let it all out – all the emotions I’d been holding in for the past few days. It’s emotional to go and fall in love with children and then have to leave them. A huge part of me wanted to stay and take care of and love them. They so desperately need that love. They deserve that kind of love. And it’s so much a part of me to want to give that to them. It broke my heart to see all these children without loving parents to care for them. Many of them have parents still living but they have abandoned them. Others had gotten the kids taken away for neglect or issues with drugs. The little boy I got the most attached to – 2 year old Ariel – him and his 4 older siblings have been taken away from their mom multiple times. We were told that the last time someone had called police because they were home alone. I don’t know for how long – whether it was hours or days – but I cannot imagine leaving children to fend for themselves like that. Especially with a 2 year old in the house. I could tell by the way these kids interacted that they are used to taking care of themselves and being on their own. I know it breaks Gods heart that His children are not being cared for the way they need to be. And it breaks mine. That Christian song that says, “break my heart for what breaks yours…” became fully alive for me on this trip. My heart still feels burdened, broken, like part of it has been ripped out. And you know what – as much as it hurts and is hard and brings me to tears – I want to feel that way because if I get so numb to the injustice in the world that I no longer feel this way – that would be unthinkable. I want God to break my heart because it’s in that pain that he reminds me why I do this and he deepens the desire and passion within me to do more, to make a difference, to change lives. It also reminds me that God has put adoption on my heart. Sometimes I feel impatient that I’m not in the place yet where I can do that. But I am reminded that His promises are true and I know He put that desire in me and when the time is right – He will fulfill it. But in the meantime, I get the honor and privilege to go and be His hands and feet and love on kids all around the world. That’s a desire He put in my heart several years ago and it is amazing to me how He has orchestrated every detail for me to get to this place. Even down to what could have been a bad thing – losing my job last October. I am in awe at how faithfully He has provided during the in-between time and how I now am working for Visiting Orphans doing the thing I am most passionate about in the world – loving on children. How amazing is our God! I’m getting all teary just writing about it. And you know, I know how much God loves me and I definitely know how much He loves these children. He loves them even more than I do and so in theses times of feeling broken at having gone and loved and having to leave – I know that He has them and He loves them. And I will keep praying for them to have loving families and that no matter what – they will fully experience the awesome love of our creator.

In Costa Rica, on the last day we spent at each of the two orphanages near Limon, we gathered all the kids together and told them about Jesus using an awesome tool called an Evangicube (great for kids btw). Our amazing translator Susana did a wonderful job telling the story in Spanish. It was so much better to have her do it rather than one of us and then have to pause for translation. Plus she added so much to what we had shared with her that we’d like to tell them. She called them each out by name and told them by name that Jesus loved them. She asked questions and kept their attention. She even made them laugh by asking them questions about Jesus’ life here on earth. She said things like “did Jesus kill people?” and all the kids laughed and shouted out “no”. They knew enough about Jesus to know that He is kind and loving and that the things she was asking were absurd. It was so neat to seem them engaged like that. I loved seeing how hungry they were for even more of this good news. Several of the boys were really interested and asked a lot of questions and gave a lot of answers to her questions. We had her tell them that the reason we came all this way was to tell them about Jesus and even though we had to go, we would still be praying for them. We told them that they could pray to Jesus anytime and He would always listen. And that He was their father in heaven who would never leave them. One of the girls on our team shared a personal story about how her dad had left when she was a kid and that someone had told her about Jesus and that changed her life. Several of the kids came up to her and the translator afterwards and asked more questions about that – they were definitely listening and very interested - I really feel like the Lord had wanted her to share that story because so many of them are experiencing that same kind of abandonment by their parents.


It is hard to leave and come home after a trip like this. But there are kids around the world that need the love we can give and the message we bring – the good news that Jesus is their father in heaven who will NEVER leave or forsake them. And through us – they can get a glimpse into the love of the father. And what a huge responsibility and privilege it is to be that representative for the most-high King!!! I’m not qualified for this job and I don’t have a long list of experience but I’m willing to go – and that’s really all the Lord asks. So I say “Here I am Lord – send me.” What about you? Where is He calling you? And will you be willing to go? I hope you will because it’s in that willingness that you get outside your comfort zone and you truly experience God in a way you could have never imagined. Your life will be changed forever. You can never be the same. But don’t worry – you won’t want to be.



Sunday, March 7, 2010

I left my heart behind today

Today was wonderful and hard at the same time. We had a great time playing with the kids at Coco's orphanage. They really warmed up to us even moreso today since they had gotten to know us a bit more. We painted faces, did puffy paints on t-shirts, the guys played soccer with some of the older kids and I got to stack blocks with little Ariel - the little boy I wrote about yesterday. He was so much more comfortable and less shy today than he was at the beach yesterday. I think because it was his third time seeing us. I did get to pick him up and wipe the paint off his hands and help feed him some jello. He was having a hard time scooping it out himself cause it was pretty liquidy. It was so cute to interact with him - he's so precious. He walks around a lot with his hands in his mouth and he seems kind of scared in general. I really think based on how he acts and his next oldest sibling acts - there's probably a good chance that there has been some violence in their life. It just breaks my heart to think of the things these kids have been through. Please be praying for all of them that wonderful, loving parents would adopt them. Ariel is 2 and has 4 siblings. There were a handful of other kids there too. One with MS, another who is blind, a baby, a 17 year old and several kids in the 6-9 year old range. Ariel's older brother Antonio was not there the first day we came but he was there yesterday at the beach. Our translator was telling the kids about Jesus today and he was so attentive and interested. He was sitting on the top of the couch and I was standing behind him. I put my hand on his back and didn't know how he would respond. He wrapped his arms around me and put his head on my chest. It was so precious and I just saw how much he so desperately wanted that love. It was so hard to leave them. Every single one of us was crying. Whew - so emotional yet we go into this knowing we'll experience some of this. The Lord indeed breaks our hearts for what breaks His. And we go to share Him with the kids. He is a father to the fatherless. I pray that they heard that message I pray that will stay with them long after we leave. Tomorrow we are going to have our last day at the other orphanage Villas Del Mar. We'll surely have a great time but again - it will be heartbreaking to leave. I just pray we leave the message of Christ when we go and that the kids will fully understand that His love for them is why we came.